I remember years ago when I used to brag about living "the beautiful struggle" to my friends, family, and co-workers. Though I wasn't in the best financial state or had A+ credit, I felt that "suffering need" (as my mother called it) was necessary for growth. I have always been taught that struggling and suffering through various storms of life built strength and character. As a woman I had to be strong. As a woman I had to be able to persevere through the stormiest weather.
But recently, I've been feeling differently. Why again should I have to suffer and undergo extreme hardships
The issue that bothers me even more than my sensitivity is my inclination to mask my sensitivity. Why do I feel that I have to hide my emotions? Perhaps it is because of societal standards forced upon me. A woman who appears to be sensitive is never taken seriously or is perceived to be emotionally unstable. But a woman who never shows emotion is seen as cold-hearted or emotionally detached. How does one reach a happy medium? I am asking more questions than I am willing to find the answers for here. So I have decided to strip myself of a few titles.
I no longer want to be anyone's poster child for strength and resiliency. It takes too much responsibility to be the strong, unwavering one in the scenario all the time. That causes one to constantly put on a mask and shiny armor, as if that will shield and protect everyone from danger. The reality of the matter is abandoning one's emotions will only cause stress, anxiety, and long-term health problems. In short, I reserve the right to be a damsel in distress every now and again. So should you.